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Scars on my chest

The scars on my chest
Are not invisible.
Your eyes cannot see
What she did to me,
But that doesn’t mean
I never hurt.

The scars on my chest
Are deeper than I realized.
Even though I’ve moved on
The memory lingers on,
And a broken heart
Never fully heals.

The scars on my chest–
A bage of honor
I proudly wear,
Reminding me that under there
Is something that will
Never be hurt again.

The scars on my chest
Are a memory.
You helped me move ahead,
Proved that love is not dead.
A broken heart
Will never keep me down.

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Fucking my brain

I did it for you.
Everything.
You turned around and
fucked my brain.
Do you want me to
go insane?
Woman, your evil
in my brain,
Please make these tears all
go away.
And please stop fucking
my poor brain.
I need you to stop
this charade.
And please stop fucking
my poor brain.

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One more time

The trees were a blur
out the window I stared.
You wouldn’t flinch,
you never really cared.

The music was loud,
but it couldn’t drown
the tension of goodbyes.
Now I realize we’re bound

to forget this ever happened,
this day that came from hell.
Forget I ever happened,
forget I treat you well.

Remember how we loved
and how we danced?
Remember how we vowed?
Zombified romance.

I’ll never stop loving you,
though you will torture me.
I’ll never stop missing you,
though you will never see.

Remember how we loved
and how you smiled?
Remember how you told me
you wanted a child?

All these thoughts and feelings
die inside this car ride
from Manchester to Murfreesboro.
I wish that I could die.

But someday you will think back
on this moment and many more
that warmed your soul and
you’ll regret slamming this door.

My face will rain for weeks and weeks
until my skin dissolves.
My mind will try to gather so
my aching heart resolves.

One more time, I love you.
One more time, I care.
One more time, remember me
I will always be right there.

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Bee Vomit

I hate to say I love you,
more than I have shown.
I hate to say I need you,
pretend like I have grown.

I hate to know you’re hurting
and sleeping all alone.
I hate to sit here singing
in my empty home.

I’d love to feel your heartbeat
thumping through my head.
I’d love to hold your icy hands,
watch my face turn red.

I’d love to know you’re sleeping
safely in my grasp.
I’d love to forge a future
so we can burn the past.

I hate to say I’m sorry
for things I haven’t done.
I hate to disappear–and sometimes—
I hate that you’re the one.

I hate synthetic distance and
no matter how I try,
I hate to see you walk away
and never say goodbye.

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No such thing

I thought I saw behind your eyes.
I thought I rose above.
Then I heard the devil say with a sigh,
“There ain’t no such thing as love.”

I know my cards are falling.
I feel my head hang low.
Then I see you run away outside and I say,
“I know that’s just how it goes.”

I hear the birds calling out your name,
every night in my sleep.
I feel the world fall right through my hands,
I’m making promises to myself
I know I can’t keep.

I thought I saw behind your eyes.
I thought I rose above.
Then I heard the devil say with a sigh,
“There ain’t no such thing as love.”

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