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Graduation day

People were scurrying through the corridor.
Caps, gowns, smiles
I leaned against a wall, looking for you.
Families, friends, strangers
One million people passed me by.
Laughter, chatter, footsteps
You called my name. Delighted, I looked up.
Concern, tall, beauty
You asked me why I waited in the hall.
Love, longing, you
We walked and talked and in my mind
we were together again.
Love, you, life

But then reality set in
and I watched you walk away.
Reality set in
and I was all alone.

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Bee Vomit

I hate to say I love you,
more than I have shown.
I hate to say I need you,
pretend like I have grown.

I hate to know you’re hurting
and sleeping all alone.
I hate to sit here singing
in my empty home.

I’d love to feel your heartbeat
thumping through my head.
I’d love to hold your icy hands,
watch my face turn red.

I’d love to know you’re sleeping
safely in my grasp.
I’d love to forge a future
so we can burn the past.

I hate to say I’m sorry
for things I haven’t done.
I hate to disappear–and sometimes—
I hate that you’re the one.

I hate synthetic distance and
no matter how I try,
I hate to see you walk away
and never say goodbye.

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The part where I say goodbye

It seems at the start
As if the sky
Is endless and blue
Without ever a night
It seems at the start
Like I will never die
But this is the part
Where I say goodbye

It seems when it’s over
When it’s all said and done
I must have been wrong
When I said I’m the one
Who changes how you think
How you feel
Who changes who you are
Changes what is real
It seems at the end
Like I was always alone
It seems you really were
A girl I’ve never known

But this is the part
Where you ask me why
This is the part
Where I proclaim the world mine
This is the part where things can get tricky
This is the part where we will be undone

This is the part where I make you cry
Because, girl,
This is the part where I say goodbye

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